One Miles per hour

My Swedish American love story.

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the hunt

Just a little bit over a week left before the long journey back to America, California, Santa Barbara, home, work, school, reality, and best of all ROUTINE. Marcus & I obviously have mixed feelings about leaving. We are both super excited to finally start our lives as 3 since the last time we were in SB all together things were just temporary since we were moving to Sweden this summer. Anyways I am on the hunt for a job, either my old one or a new one. I have had a couple email, phone, skype interviews and discussions and I thought I had found a ”dream job” but turns out it was only part time (20 hours) a week. Though the pay was niceand the position was totally something I was looking for I would rather get my old job back & move up a level to get paid the same with more hours, and work somewhere familiar and family safe… having Miles makes things a bit more complicated as we need to find an affordable, loving and safe daycare for him for a couple days a week. 


He has been with us since day 1 and both Marcus and I were blessed with the Swedish government and me working for a school to have so much time to bond with the little guy. Marcus will cram all his classes into two days again this semester to get Swedish paternity money on his days off & be able to stay at home with Miles to avoid the costs of day care. It will be a nice transition for all of us, not easy, but nice. I will start pumping like a maniac throughout the days to keep up with Miles while we are apart and for once be able to wake up in the mornings all together and start the day!


I can not wait to go back to work and have something to do again, though I love being a mommy, a stay at home mom is not the life for me. I spent too much time shopping, eating out, hanging out with friends, and drinking wine and coffee but of course I spent tons of time with Miles and breastfed exclusively up until recently when it became a morning, afternoon, bedtime thing along with solids. 


ok I am babbling… well we are now deciding between jobs and apartments and it’s turning out to be extremely difficult to find a place, as almost everything is taken or applied for by people who qualify more than us :/ looks like we might have to grab somethign temporarily while we find something more permanent perhaps after we pay off some bills and get settled and realize what we can actually afford after my checks start coming in and daycare takes it portion. 


adult life… 

august, 22

So we finally booked our tickets home. It feels sometimes like we have been away from home for years and other times we look back and it all went by so fast. Most of the summer has been spent with friends and family while some of it has of course been spent stressing out about what’s to come when we move back. We have a lot of discussing to do still when it comes to what we can afford, what bills we will aim to pay off first and how much we can try and save each month. Though we dreamed of renting a two bedroom this time around it looks like a one bedroom will have to do. 


Miles is still so young and has no real need for his OWN room besides me and Marcus getting our bed and lives together back but that can wait… I would love to get all of our debt paid off and find the perfect apartment together for a future move in. 


anyways Miles has been demolishing EVERYTHING in sight lately and loves everything he has tried so far, fruits, veggies, chicken, pasta (he just isn’t too into ground beef). He eats purees every now and then when he either can’t eat what we are aka American pancakes and bacon for breakfast or when we are out and eating fast food or don’t have time to pack something for him. I can’t wait to get back and in the kitchen whipping up some tasty baby meals we can all enjoy!


He is still scooting around on the floor and rolling from one end of the house to the other and the change in poop from baby breastfed soup like poop to big boy poop took us all by surprise and has become his new favorite thing to do. Poor little guy had a nasty rash this weekend and wouldn’t stop crying everytime he farted or pooped, heartbreaking….thanks to a little butt paste it was fixed 🙂

I am still trying to figure it all out considering he poops a few times a day now vs. when he used to only poop one big blow out a day… more diapers for us to buy and change… wahhhh


so we only have about 12 days left and this weekend we spent it at Marcus’ sister beautiful cozy wedding and my friend Cecilia’s crayfish party for her 25th birthday. After a two day hangover I finally rose from the dead and I’ve decided to meet Sofia, Madelene & Julia for a swim and lunch with Miles. I have to pack in as many visits with friends and Marcus’ family as possible now since it’ll probably be another year till I see alot of them… boo 


post coming soon on my favorite blogs I’m reading lately. I promise a new blog design and more effort, links, tags, etc. put into my posts when I get back home.!















it’s all happening so fast

It’s crazy how fast these little ones grow. I was just laying on the couch talking with Marcus about the possibility of another little someday… I know, too soon. Anyways somedays I feel like one is enough and how could I-we possibly do all this again but then he smiles or he babbles or starts to do something else super amazing and I’m sold.. ready for another. 

I remember so clearly the HELL HOUR we would face each night the first few months when he would do nothing but cry and want to be held close up against me, spending hours breastfeeding and skipping showers, meals, hugs with Marcus and then all the sudden it was over. Then there were the months where Miles only wanted me. nothing or no one else. We would again spend hours breastfeeding and cuddling, which sounds amazing but when you start stinking and missing out on life itself, it gets tough. Like I mentioned in the last post something amazing happened at 8 months. 


All this time I thought Miles would for sure skip crawling. He hated tummy time from day 1 and has spent most of his days from about 3 months only turning to his stomach to just turn back to his back right away, he never did more than 1 roll at a time & LOVED standing with the help of us or something else. 


All the sudden when I was in Malmö he rolled around like a maniac and still hasn’t stopped. He can roll himself all over the house in seconds and even off the bed, if we left him. scary stuff. 


well lately he’s been getting a lot of floor time and these hard wood floors make it possible for him to roll like a maniac to his little hearts desire and all the sudden today, he started making scooting attempts. He is spending most of his time on his tummy and hands and reaching with all his might for his favorite things, water bottle, plastic hammer, our phones. 


After realizing he could grip the floor and pull himself he has made a few attempts. I can’t believe it… ok sounds small but trust me, you moms know how I feel right now. I also don’t know how I feel about crawling haha… this means no more just sitting and playing in one area, this means no more picnics remaining on a blanket at the park… well well … it’s all SO WORTH it. Someday when he’s walking and running around I will miss the days he would army crawl around the house. 



love you little Miles. Keep impressing daddy and I. 

the last 7 days

ahhhh sory I dissapeard. It’s been a busy week. As you know Marcus, Miles & I have been staying at Marcus’ sister’s apartment closer to the city for the last month and it was time for her to come home so we had to pack up everything and move out over the weekend. 


Miles & I however fled for Skåne (Malmö) (the south of Sweden) to visit Stina (Miles’ godmother and her family). After a few days exploring Malmo Miles and I hopped on a train and headed to Copenhagen, Denmark to enjoy all there is there. 


Since it was just us two it was quite a journey and between the thunder storms and intense heat wave we made it through the day and came back with a bag of Denmark’s highest rated coffee. Miles & I did tons of walking, shopping and meeting of a few coffee shop owners there and learned a lot about Copenhagen & coffee which was amazing. 3 iced coffees, a feta watermelon salad and some shopping later we headed back to Malmö on the train. 

Monday early morning we flew back to Stockholm, about a 45 min flight, and lucky me Miles slept both the way there and back in the ergo on my chest… sitting in our seat. Perfect. The way there we had a whole row of seats to ourselves and unfortunately the plane was full the way there but we sat next to a 10 year old girl flying alone who kept Miles entertained during take off and landing when he had to wake up, face forward and wear a baby seat belt. 


We are now back at Marcus’ dads and on our last couple weeks here. I am looking forward to the move back already and starting to go through all we have to pack and figure out what we should take and what we should leave/donate/sell. Miles has started an obsession with rolling EVERYWHERE. He has known how to roll from front to back for awhile now but has never done two rolls in a row or realized it can take him places. Lucky for us because up until now we could leave him on beds and couches. We are back to co sleeping due to lack of space and I now can only sleep with him near the wall in fear of him rolling off. 


Next comes crawling… he still only sits and rolls but has started to enjoy being on his tummy more and is using his hands to prop himself up. I am not looking forward to beach and park adventures chasing a little eel around… 


anyways yesterday we spent the day at the beach with his little friend Alvar and family and today we sale shopped for future ”swedish brand” clothes for Miles. Thank god for us all the summer clothes go on sale since the cold winter is approaching, since we basically have summer year round we benefit from these 70% off deals!


ok pizza time. I promise more updating from here on out… I’ve got lots left to tell about BLW, feeding, rolling, Miles updates & everything else. 



ps pictures coming tomorrow as soon as I get more internet on my phone. 
















time for ourselves

Marcus & I got to spend some time with just the two of us this evening. After a day at the nearby splash pool with Miles & some grocery/clothes shopping we headed home to meet grandma. Marcus’ mom has been trying to get us out of the house for awhile now both so she could spend time with Miles & so we could have some time to ourselves. So nice 🙂

well after hunting and harassing Yelp/google/whatsupstockholm we finally decided on dinner and drinks at Berns, a local bar/nightclub/restaurant in the upper class part of town 😉 why not right?

well…. once we got on the subway my dusty old highheels, which haven’t been worn in ages, starting to rub and wear on my feet resulting in blisters and me almost falling down in front of everyone. We called it quits on journeying our way towards Berns and paid a visit to Garden (an outside bar in the hotel central area of town). (one of my favorite drink spots)

after a pre drink that cost an arm & a leg (dry daq. $20) we aimed for a nearby sushi place with high ratings and after taking the wrong bus and having to walk further than before just to arrive at a ”closed for summer” restaurant. wahhhhhhhhhh

I realized by this point I was craving tapas and the clock was ticking since we had to be back in time to put Miles to bed. He hasn’t been taking a bottle so well and we are working on some new ”sleep training” issues (I’ll go more into that in a later post)…basically he won’t go to sleep with anyone else but mamma …

ok so we stumbled around the cobble stoned roads of Stockholm and came to a random tapas place and called it a night. After a glass or two of tasty spanish wine and some decent tapas we trained it back to the little man who was anxiously waiting for us at the stations end.

We realized tonight as much as we ”need” a break from being parents sometimes, I really don’t want one. I love being with my two guys and as much as Miles drives me insane at times I miss him like crazy when I’m gone and my little mommy heart longs for him every second we’re apart. Jesus… what will I do when he moves out?

alright time for some netflix & swedish candy. Back to reality. Tonight was fun babe… let’s stick to what we do best 😉







aja baja

So far nothing within Miles’ reach is safe. He luckily isn’t crawling or pulling himself up onto things yet but HELL is going to break loose when that day comes. So far his highchair can only be in the absolute CENTER of a room away from everything.

Today I placed him in the kitchen with some cucumber sticks next to the dining room table and stupidly decided it was time to pee for the first time all day. Silly mamma… you don’t get potty breaks.

Anyways I come back to drawers that were within reach open and everything in them thrown onto the floor and/or in his mouth. As much as I love his curiosity I don’t even know where to begin with baby proofing.

as for today Marcus had football and I wandered the streets in search for the perfect hat. Done 🙂 (pictures coming later when I have the energy)
After a kebab pita roll because my fav. indian rest. was finished with their lunch special of the day Miles & i made our way back home.

After a few naps, movies, reading, playing, a glass of wine, a bath session on the balcony in the warm summer sun (ended abruptly after the water turned brown and green if you know what I mean) daddy came home and it was time for dinner & bedtime for Miles.



Dinner & drinks

Having Angie, Jens & sweet baby Alvar over tonight for dinner. After dinner A & I are leaving the babes asleep and home with the daddies while we step out for a breath of fresh Stockholm summer air 🙂

Can’t wait!
Ps have you had a chance to download the party party app!? I love it. By one of my favorite blogs

a beautiful mess

Follow my Instagram and watch my experiments with the app throughout the night ❤️


Outfit inspo one teaspoon denim & Birkenstock

zoo day with my babe

Yesterday we spent the day at the zoo, Skansen, here in Stockholm. After a train ride into the city and another train ride along the water we finally arrived. Miles loves the train luckily and even though he tries to lick and suck on all the handles and poles the smile he puts on stranger’s faces makes it all worth it.

The zoo was HUGE so to speak. We spent a lot of time walking around and talking and taking care of Miles, more than actually looking at animals. Most of the animals were either hiding surrounded by huge groups of people so getting a good look at them was almost impossible. I finally got to see the bears. I had only been here during the late fall and winter and they were hibernating so this time they were all out running around, laying around, climbing trees & just being as cute as possible. Miles loves animals believe it or not and his favorite were the sheep and goats because they actually came close to us and yelled & jumped around. Maybe owning a farm is something we should look into 😉

The last few weeks he has been really paying attention to the smallest details and it’s adorable. He can spot a tag on something from a mile away (exaggerating mamma) & loves zippers, buttons and just about anything he gets his hands on. He will grab a toy or piece of food I give and turn it all angles, look inside, underneath & then swap hands and do it all over again. Then it goes straight into the mouth for a final analysis. I remember the days when he would spit his pacifier out and I would have to reach my hand back while driving or pick it up off the floor 238742873 times. Now he takes it out and puts it back in as needed. Sometimes he will just be playing amongst a pile of toys and spot his pacifier and all the sudden it’s in his mouth. cute.

He even stops to look at it first, adjusting it in his hands to find the right spot. Sometimes it goes in upside down and either way he just sucks proudly 🙂

ya I sound proud… it’s the smallest things this little babe does that just put a smile on my face. Things I try and document and take pictures of. Thanks to him my phone has had to be uploaded onto a hard-drive almost 4 times since he’s been born haha… I miss the good old days when you would take a picture hoping it turned out and going to get them developed and having to wait 4-7 days before the results. Usually 40% of them came out the way they were supposed to while the rest were just a blurr or a moment in time you had forgotten even happened …. My plan when I get back is to buy an old school polaroid camera. I know the film is expensive so I’ll use it for special occasions.

plan B: Get all my pictures from day 1 developed off my phone and hard-drive. Turns out it was already going to be around $50 when I tried after just 4 months of Miles being in our lives. Can’t imagine now 4 months later and a whole country of photos. YIKES

ps thanks to a beautiful mess I downloaded the latest app PartyPartyApp! Check them out. It’s already #1 in the App Store and super fun for taking photo booth, slideshow, cropped pictures… ❤







I’m still the same old me

Finally got an invite yesterday to go out with some girlfriends for an ”after work” as they call it here in Sweden. Afterwork translates to happy hour usually without the happy hour prices we have back home. After a long days of work you go out with co-workers, friends, sig-others to share drinks and appetizers. Wednesdays are pretty special here as they are also known as ”little satruday”, back home we have ”’Thirsty Thursday” in the good ol college days which are celebrated as an extension of the weekend.

Not sure what makes Wednesday so special here but anyways.

I have only been out out once since I’ve been here and I barely survived the hangover from hell not to mention the engorgment throughout the night and the shitty cost of a taxi back home because I couldn’t manage to figure out the night bus situation (wouldv’e taken an hour by bus anyways).

point is: I’m over the night life. I would kill however to get the chance to get some wine with friends at a loungy type of place where the music and lights are turned down low and there is no creepy wasted guy trying to cop a feel or check out your breasts which are only large because it’s been too long since you BF’d your babe… gross TMI

From what I’ve gathered is that most of my ”once friends” are either convinced now that I am a mom I want nothing more than to be home smothered in baby’s love or that I am tied down and can’t leave the house for a drink now that I’m a mommy. well well. two things wrong

1. Yes I love being smothered in Miles’ tiny little body and have my face scratched, sucked on and slobbered all over all day and night long but cleaning up and putting some bronzer on for once actually sounds fun

2. Yes I’m a mom and I have responsibilities far greater than some of my friends now that I’ve got a little man to care for, feed, play with and show the way but I am also human and still only 24 years old. My life is just beginning and though I don’t feel like getting wasted, crawling home & throwing up all night and the day after I still love going out, socializing and just meeting new people in general. I will however keep my cool, limit my alcohol intake, avoid cig smoke for Miles sake & get home at a decent time giving myself some hours of sleep before tackling the day ahead.

with that being said… please don’t forget about me. You’d be surprised what i can still make happen. 🙂

oh ya… when Miles does tag along for lunch, fika, dinner, picnic beware I may spend 80% of our conversation playing with him, feeding him, changing him, holding him or staring at him. I have grown an extra set of ears for you






I’ve been hunting online for a new place in Santa Barbara and I find myself going a few hundred over our monthly budget each new post I see. yikes.

I have to remove myself now since all I find are houses and apartments ready for move in now or August 1st and we won’t be ready to move in till Sept 1st… no use in looking when I can’t get anything yet & I am sure all these amazing dream apartments I see are gonna be gone by then.

Is a private patio, hardwood floors, fireplace, 2 bedroom, bathroom with a tub, grass area so much to ask for? Well I guess in the meantime I can harass urban outfitters home deco & world market and start couch hunting.